Time is all most running out, and I feel my life going away, even though hypnosis didn't work. I had waited for the transformation, but that wasn't working. I wasn't shaping my body like I was meant to do for him, but I still hope that my "YMCA" member ship didn't get ended. I'm still trying hypnosis, but it isn't working yet. I tried making suggestions that make me always breathe but still have control over my heart and lungs if I wanted to, but it didn't work. I all ways sub consciously hold my breath, and I all ways have to hyper ventilate deep breaths or whatever, and that is causing stress, and that is happening even when I don't hypnotise my self. And when I am asleep when I'm hypnotised, the suggestions don't work when I want them to, and all of the parts of my half of his mind are clear for the moment, the suggestions aren't working, but I know that I need to keep trying. How many times do I need to try to make hypnosis work when I want it to work?